That is, until sometime in the last year or so.
Although I have not made a public announcement of our desire to have children, some things are apparent: we are in our mid-30s, happily married for 5+ years, financially stable, in good health, we welcome children in our home and lives…so…”Do you have kids?” Family building is such a deeply personal affair, yet so very public. The answer, plain-as-day, is no. So maybe this isn’t an announcement after all.
We have a deeply personal story here. Complete with joy, pain, sex, surgery, giving, receiving, herbal teas, financial worries, love growing, sobbing, chromosomal testing, medical specialists, anger, you-name-it analysis, prayer, hope, travel, drama, applications, helplessness, empowerment, fixing, waiting, castor oil, dreaming, needles, resting, discipline, licentiousness, counseling, tinctures, test kits, and God, God, God.
Any western woman knows the line the medical community draws in the sand: 35. Frankly, I think its BS for a jazillion reasons. Nonetheless, this damn statistical line is hovering in my peripheral vision…and this is me giving it the finger. (See that? That’s my middle finger). And, mysteriously, less loudly, I want to give it a warm embrace all at the same time.
Happy 34th Birthday to me!
Here’s to being unashamedly, (but appropriately?), open in my 34th year.
My Last Best Year.