The Wagner’s have some announcements to make, …, in no
particular order. Because, after all,
who could chose which to pick to announce first. So,…, I just flipped a coin. Like, really, I just flipped a quarter:
#1 – HEADS – Our Dossier is complete and on its way to the
Dominican. I blame the home study
process for sucking all my blogging-ness out of me. Alas!, it is off. We are celebrating and thankful.
#2 – TAILS – I am pregnant!
And not just a little bit, (she says ironically). Truly, my body holds a little girl that will
waken to this big, beautiful, and terrifying world in early May. Imagine our joy.
I am six months bodily pregnant, (oh baby yes), and just
started really showing this week. And
so, with the new found freedom I feel with a healthy ultrasound, I have been
slowly telling people that don’t know our sweet, long, desirous tale of
entering parenthood. And they innocently
they ask: is this your first?
Oh the answers I could give and the ones I have tried
on. The most simple and honest one I can
muster is: kind of. I say with all grace; I do feel deep grace for the
question. Because who would guess that we
have had many firsts, and all deserve celebration, and all ask for patience,
and all have brought me here: expectant
in more ways than one. And most fully
open to all of it.
Disclaimer: It is so
common for a pregnant mother in the adoption process to hear about an aunt’s
friends sister who “had the same thing happen! “ And all the reasons why this may be. Dear friends, at best it is an urban legend
and at worst it speaking for God where we cannot. Trust me, we have all heard these
stories. And trust me, they are not true
of everyone. Lastly, trust me, it is all
good.
