(By the way, there is tons of exciting, breaking research, on MS and treatment for it. For more info on the disease and its treatment visit http://www.nationalmssociety.org).
My saint of a mother had this wild, (and genius), idea: take the full FMLA allowance of 6 weeks off right away. She gave me good reasons for my practical mind: to be with family, adjust to the medication, make some initial lifestyle changes, and let my mind and body heal.
“But, what if this happens again? I need that time just in case.”
“Honey, if this happens again I am coming to get you and you are living with me.”
And then I made a deal with God. “God. If this happens again, I am going home.” (Back to family's home in Maryland. I was in Colorado going to Seminary. Like, as in, I had a call to ministry and was going to grad school for it; hence, the direct deal with God). I did not worry about the cosmic questions at that point: did God do this? Did He allow it? Could he have stopped it? I just simply said it; I was certain. (Decisiveness in crisis is key).
The one thing that is certain about the diagnosis of MS, is that nothing is certain. The diagnosis carries a ton of weight, but actually predicts very, very little. But I was certain, that if I had another "episode," I was going home to momma. (And Dad. Who was also a saint. Maybe more later on his two week stay in a one bedroom apartment with his physically, emotionally unhinged 25 year old daughter. Definitely a saint.).
I think I should have been a little more specific with God, though. Because I said, "If THIS happens again." Too specific. But again, I get ahead of myself. That was September, October, November, etc. I'm still in July and August - with a lot of time on my hands.