Before I went to the DR, I sort of anticipated that I would come home with more to do than I when I went: because I am a big picture gal and because I felt the momentum for the trip building enough to sense that Project I See You would continue and even grow after our second trip. It just felt as if my life could become a little more messy? non-routine? out of the box? And that it has and here I am.
Some are naturally okay with this, but in my nature I am a 9 to 5 gal; I like my life in tidy little compartments. My life is anything but that right now. I work as a counselor, which by nature ebbs and flows and is somewhat day to day. When counseling is ebbing I spend my extra time working on Step Up Enterprises and its non-profit arm, Step Up to Help, with my friend Brian. I also pick up shifts at a 24 hour acute treatment unit when they need help. I also have a husband that works an overnight rotating schedule... And, now, to boot, Project I See You had an amazing week, (actually two weeks - three ladies stayed an extra week!), and it seems that our next steps will involve areas that are irresistible to me and I know something(s) about.
Having a past of perpetual over-commitment, (that was thankfully altered by years of serious physical illness), I asked for prayer from my nearest and dearest before I went "to be able to discern what is best" and where to say no. Interestingly, as I have prayed, I have heard one thing, "Enter into the mess." To which I reply, "Like - this messier mess?" To which I think I have heard, "Yes...for now."
So - here I am: entering into the mess. The mess of my non-routine, day to day, out of the box life. Freely, deeply, with open hands...