Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Enter Into the Mess

Before I went to the DR, I sort of anticipated that I would come home with more to do than I when I went: because I am a big picture gal and because I felt the momentum for the trip building enough to sense that Project I See You would continue and even grow after our second trip.   It just felt as if my life could become a little more messy? non-routine? out of the box?  And that it has and here I am.

Some are naturally okay with this, but in my nature I am a 9 to 5 gal; I like my life in tidy little compartments.  My life is anything but that right now.  I work as a counselor, which by nature ebbs and flows and is somewhat day to day.  When counseling is ebbing I spend my extra time working on Step Up Enterprises and its non-profit arm, Step Up to Help, with my friend Brian.  I also pick up shifts at a 24 hour acute treatment unit when they need help. I also have a husband that works an overnight rotating schedule... And, now, to boot, Project I See You had an amazing week, (actually two weeks - three ladies stayed an extra week!), and it seems that our next steps will involve areas that are irresistible to me and I know something(s) about.

Having a past of perpetual over-commitment, (that was thankfully altered by years of serious physical illness), I asked for prayer from my nearest and dearest before I went "to be able to discern what is best" and where to say no.  Interestingly, as I have prayed, I have heard one thing, "Enter into the mess."  To which I reply, "Like - this messier mess?"  To which I think I have heard, "Yes...for now."

So - here I am: entering into the mess.  The mess of my non-routine, day to day, out of the box life.  Freely, deeply, with open hands...

2 comments:

  1. Awesome to be in the mess with you, Lizzy! Way more exciting than boring! Here's to the next season of mess.

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  2. Are you saying I am naturally boring? ha, ha! Thanks, Brian.

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